Undecided

"Your usually strong will is hardly making a peep -- where's this meek streak coming from? And, inconveniently, it's happening just when you need to make a decision."

I don't really believe in horoscopes and stuff like that...but this forecast on Friendster really caught my attention..hehehe!

I can imagine the people who knew about my current dilemma nodding their heads in agreement(with a smirk to boot..hehe) For those who don't, well, it's a matter of choosing between two..shall I say, hard-to-pass-up opportunities...

One, the chance to experience and learn about a foreign culture, which will allow me to get a feel of living independently for 1 year, working with non-english speaking people and which, most of all will contribute a lot to my already drained savings account..hehehe!(oh..there's one more reason..but if I tell you then I'd have to kill you. ;) )

The other one, on the other hand..will allow me to rest from sleepless nights, dreaming about stubborn bugs....one that will let me have my life back...a new world, where the future looks brighter...something that will "accentuate" (get it? hehe!) my professional life....

So there, now, I'm kinda facing two passage ways for one possible real end of the tunnel, where I will hopefully see the light....

Right now, I'm really torn and as I have told one close friend of mine, I wish things were simpler and easier to decide on....but..well..this is the spice of life...goodness...I just hope I could clearly see where God is leading me....

Darn...couldn't even decide on what title to give this entry...man..this is bad....

Ewan Ko Nga Ba

Ang dami kong dapat gawin..
Pro ewan ko ba...tamad na tamad ako talaga.
Wala sa kundisyon, inaantok at sadyang walang gana.
Ang gusto ko lang ay tumulala at magpahinga...

Panay ang masid sa oras...
Nagmamadaling sa opisina ay makalabas...
Nais magpakalayo layo...
Kung pwede nga lang, habang buhay nang magtago...

Hindi naman ako dating ganito...
Noon araw araw, trabaho ay talagang ginagawa ko..
Pinag-iigihan, pinag bubutihan..
Upang pangarap ay makamtan...

Subalit ngayon, hindi ko alam...
Sadyang lumipas na yata ang aking kasipagan...
Di ko alam kung anung dahilan....
Matinding "motivation" ang kailangan...

Ako'y talagang inip na inip...
Malapit na nga akong maidlip..
Maya't maya, YM ay minamasdan...
Maya't maya, ang YM status ko ay pinapalitan...

Kasabay ng aking trabaho, nagawa ko ang tulang ito...
Di sadya, at bigla...sadyang matindi lng ang "boredom" ko..
Dalawang oras pa bago matapos ang araw na ito..
Haaaaaayyyyyy, ewan ko nga ba bakit ganito....

My Speech and My Blog

Last weekend, we had this Catholic Life in the Spirit Seminar at our prayer community and one speaker said something that really hit me.

He said that No prayer community is perfect...Not because people are in a prayer community,doesnt mean they are living saints....that they are impeccable....cause if they are, they no longer deserve to live in this world...hehe! So it's just natural that within the community, you will run into people who will drive you crazy, and people who will really put your patience and your faith to the test...

But instead of letting these people get to you...the speaker said, you should be thankful for them...Why? well, because God uses those people to let you have the chance to grow in your faith and to prove your love for Him...

I think the same thing goes with the corporate world...There is no perfect company...at some point, your tolerance, endurance and capability will all be put to test...at some point, you will be part of projects that seem to go on forever, projects that will drain you of all the energy your stored for the day...at some point, you will encounter people whose views are different from yours...people who will make you want to bang your head on the table...people who can and will squeeze out up to the last drop of your patience. But..before you start biting their heads off and before you start lashing out your frustrations,pause for awhile....say a little prayer...and thank God for putting you in that difficult situation, because He allowed that for a reason...He's helping you mature professionally...you are being given the chance to grow....Of course sometimes, human nature will still kick in and we can't help but let off some steam, as I always say, It's easier said than done....but, hey...practice makes perfect...;)