Reality Check

It's crazy how reality can sometimes be a pain. I mean, here I am, supposedly so engulfed and trapped in Edward and Bella's unusual fairy tale (it's a Twilight thing), but everytime some memory of an unwanted episode of my reality kicks in, I get sucked back and all magic is lost. grrrr.

You'd think I might have lost a bit of my sanity if I prefer fiction over reality. But trust me (and the stability of my sanity), if you were in my place, you would've wanted the fictional stuff to remain as something you can just wonder about rather than have reality give you the answers hastily. Only for it to ruin everything and tarnish things you've always believed (and hoped) to be beautiful and even magical. It's like bluntly telling a child, so happy and excited, that Santa Clause does not exist -- on Christmas Eve.

Ugh. I so hate it. So much for a reality check. >:/

Christmas in my heart

Christmas is just around the corner. I've always loved this time of the year. The crisp, cold breeze, how the sun shines like it is morning sunshine the whole day,the rush, the bright lights, the Christmas parties, the gifts (both given and received),the Christmas tree, ham, hot chocolate and noche buena with my family.

This is the 1st year that we are celebrating without my kapatid -- my younger brother, Mak.He already went on board his first vessel and is about to dock at San Antonio, Chile in about 24 hours. I miss him of course. But despite his absence, our family still feels complete. Maybe because I am used to having one absent family member during special gatherings, with the nature of my Dad's job as well. Perhaps, it is also because I can see that my parents are happy and proud since their son -- the once prodigal child of theirs - is now on his way towards success.

My year has been very interesting. Contrary to my 2007, this year have been very light,filled with smiles, laughter, joy -- a few teardrops and stumbles every now and then, but still far more perfect than last year. Every moment was undoubtedly a blessing, every day, a miracle.I am especially thankful for the new relationship I have established with the Lord. Again, unlike last year, I think I grew closer to Him this year. I trusted in Him more, left things more under His control.Of course, there is still my occassional melt down, but I have to give myself credit for finding my way back much quicker -- although I have yet to go to confession. hehehe!

I have always loved my life -- despite the challenges, and struggles, but I can say that I have loved my life more this year. I don't know, maybe because, I think my eyes are much widely opened now than before. Allowing me to see clearly and optimistically through things -- realizing that everything happens for a reason -- God's reason. I hope this positive outlook, this tremendous love of life carry on to 2009, and the next year, and the next year and the next and the next -- until forever.

As I take a deep breath while writing my thoughts down, I feel a deep sense of peace, some inexplicable joy and an overwhelming sense of gratitude.

To all of you, my friends, guest readers (if any.hehehe!), my warmest greetings. May you have a truly blessed Christmas! Love life! =)

All I Want For Christmas ARE...=)

I have always wanted to post my wishlist, my birthday would've been the 1st great opportunity to do this, but for some reason, I was unable to do so. hehehe!

So now, habang sinisipag pa ako..at habang nka VL ako for the longest time,I am gonna grab this chance to let all my friends know (those who visit my blog at least) what I want for Christmas..para di na sila mahirapan..I'm sure I'm doing all of them a great deal of favor.hahahaha! Anyways, here goes.. (this doesn't come in any particular order by the way)

1. Olympus Stylus 850 SW digicam or Sony cybershot - ha! sa magbibigay nito...i'm all hugs and kisses for you!!!! you're the best! hahaha!

2. The following Twilight saga books (kasi nabili ko na yung 1st yung twilight...) -- hopefully mkukuha ko na to from my Fujitsu friends sa Dec 20..hahahah!

a. Breaking Dawn
b. New Moon
c. Eclipse

3. TopShop sweater without hood...color, black, brown or red..bsta wag mga sobrang bright colors. No big designs pls.(wag yung prang mga emo na sweater) Size: Medium.

4. External hard drive at least 120 GB.hehehehe! (Though di ko alam kung san ko to ggamitin at the moment.hehehehe!)

5. MSI Mini Notebook (Eto din..magbigay nito..pasasalamatan ko habang buhay hahahahahahha!)

6. GC sa kahit anu dito:

a. Charles and Keith
b. TopShop
c. Powerbooks
d. Relaksasi SPA
e. BlueMountain SPA

7. Shoe cabinet
8. Yung cap/hat stand or hanger...basta yung parang poste na sinasabitan ng mga caps or jackets..gagawin kong sabitan ng bags.hehehe!

9. Plane ticket to Singapore or Bora...na pwede ko na mkuha ngyong holiday. Di masyadong demanding.hehehehe!

10. Real-life version ni Edward Cullen..hahahahahahahahahah! Gud luck sa paghahanap.hehehe!